I appreciate your raw assessment of the fragile time of post partum.  I was diagnosed with PPD back in the day and the "remedy" was mood altering drugs.  I resisted, and that is what actually led me to my yoga and meditation practice (along with other modalities such as time in nature and the consumption of enriching foods, etc.). It turned out that for me, the thing that was at that time the most challenging experience in my life brought about lifestyle enhancements that would later on prove to be invaluable with the slings and arrows of being a spiritual being having human experiences.  MUCH love to your sweet family ❤️